5 Disturbing Music Videos

It’s true what they say: Life’s no fun without a good scare. It’s easy to get complacent in life, sitting in front of the computer screen, binge-watching your favorite series for the umpteenth time, idly swiping your thumb across a mobile game, or, heaven forbid, sinking into the squalid depths of reality TV. Every now and then, we need media to make us feel a little unsettled. So here are 5 disturbing music videos to give you nightmares.

“The process of delving into the black abyss is to me the keenest form of fascination.”
-H. P. Lovecraft

5. “Give Me an Answer” by Low Roar

With this video being inspired by Death Stranding, the upcoming game from avant garde game designer Hideo Kojima, you know you’re in for some weird shit. The scene plays out like a short horror film, presenting our protagonists in an eerie situation that immediately starts us wondering which, if any, will survive the strange ordeal to come. With impenetrable symbolism and an uneasy atmosphere, this video leaves us begging for answers that never come.

4. “Push It” by Garbage

The 90’s were a great decade for surreal music videos, and Garbage have always proudly flaunted their otherness. “Push It” features characters disturbing enough to rival any shock rocker’s video, kinky sexiness, appropriate references to the works of Rene Magritte and Stephen King, and a healthy dose of the occult. This cements Shirley Manson’s place as music’s Queen of Weirdos.

3. “Seraphim” by Mishkin Fitzgerald

This beautiful, heartfelt ballad by Birdeatsbaby frontwoman Mishkin Fitzgerald is accompanied by jarringly strange imagery. Figures in hoods, suffocating men, people in bondage or covered in ash, and other characters sit around an angelic Fitzgerald in what looks like a twisted rendition of Da Vinci’s The Last Supper. The ceiling is hung with nooses, suggesting a dreadful inspiration for this song. It’s frightening, it’s tragic, and it’s stunning.

2. “Feral Love” by Chelsea Wolfe

Straightaway, this video bombards you with uncanny imagery. Wow, Chelsea Wolfe is beautiful, but also I am afraid she’ll wear my skin. These family home videos seem really out of place here. Oh shit, that’s a lot of blood. Wait, were those the twins from The Shining? And what are they going to do to that naked lady? OH GOD, NOT A BUNNY MASK. BIOSHOCK FLASHBACKS.

1. “Here Comes the Rain” by Foetus

One night, I was about to click off of YouTube and go to sleep when I saw this video pop up on my “Recommended” list. Oh sure, I have time to check out one last video before bed. What’s the harm?

I deeply regretted it.

This video steadily takes you further and further into a place you don’t want to go. Watching it feels like watching found footage of a serial killer’s day-to-day life. The drumbeats sound like the kind you’d hear on your way to be sacrificed to some ancient deity. And if you have a dental phobia, you should turn back now. I don’t know what J. G. Thirlwell is up to here, but it’s messed up and I want no part of it.


“Finish It” – True Detective Season 3 Theory

Warning: Contains spoilers for True Detective Season 3 episodes 1, 2, & 3. Go get caught up before reading. I’m also going to be referencing clips from the trailers that have not been shown in the series proper yet. You’ve been warned.


I’m gonna cut to the chase: With what was shown to us in the two trailers, and the three episodes released so far, I think we actually have everything we need to solve this mystery.

Let’s go through the where, who, why, what, and when of it all.

Where is Julie Purcell?

While totally reasonable, I think it will turn out to be a fatal error for the detectives to have ignored the tip from that woman who had a dream about Julie. The woman said she saw the girl on a farm, surrounded by snakes. Now take a look at the large photograph in the back of the cork board, behind all the other photos.


It looks to be an overhead shot of a farm. Surrounded by snakelike rivers.

This is where the detectives will find out she was being held, but, of course, it will by then be too late, and she’ll be long gone.

Who took her? And why?

Her being held on a farm strongly implicates the Hoyt company, who would have good reason to own a farm. It could very well be that they are involved in human trafficking, as was suggested by the documentarian in episode 2. She mentions “The Crooked Spiral,” which seems to be a direct reference to the cult in season 1. I think that ultimately “the Crooked Spiral” and Hoyt are connected, probably as part of a web of interconnected secret societies and upper-class criminal organizations. Pizzolatto has said he’s toying with the idea of having the heroes of the various seasons meet each other at some point. Perhaps they will connect their respective dots, and take down the head of this shadowy group?


What did Hays leave in the woods?

When Hays receives a visit from the ghost of his deceased wife, she speaks in poetry and riddles, and ominously mentions Hays having left something out in the woods back in the 80s. What could it be?

You don’t have to be a true detective to know this case is going sour fast. With mob violence imminent, there’s a lot of pressure for the case to be closed, even if that means pinning the blame on a scapegoat. I think that when Hays discovers who the culprit truly is, he won’t be able to charge them, because they’re part of the wealthy Hoyt family, and can afford to evade justice. Someone else will be charged, probably the three teens, in order to give closure to the town and curtail their acts of violence. But Hays won’t be able to accept it. I think that, when he realizes this person is above the law, he will pursue his own vigilante justice. I think he kills this person, and shoots them and hides their body in the woods.


When exactly is Hays?

So, what’s going on with Hays and his memory?

It’s hard to miss the influences of pop culture on True Detective. The series itself is named after an old pulp magazine. The hero of season 3 is named after a Jimi Hendrix song. Season 2 very clearly drew on Twin Peaks at times. Season 1 is centered around the Yellow King and Carcosa, which are both from a Robert W. Chambers novel. And it looks like Lovecraft and D&D are going to be important points this season. Knowing this, my ears perked up during episode 3 when a certain phrase was uttered.

“Finish it.”

A widower, lost in time, hearing the specter of his deceased author wife telling him to “Finish it.” Isn’t that directly from 2006’s The Fountain? Now there could be a lot of reasons for this, including parallel thinking, but I’m just going to go ahead and call it what I think it is: An homage.

I think that this homage is indicative of supernatural elements at work. Both seasons 1 and 2 had supernatural elements, so if season 3 lacked any, it would be an outlier. So what’s the supernatural twist this season? I think Hays is moving through time.


In The Fountain, the story is divided into three time periods: The past (during the Spanish Inquisition), the present (2006 at the time), and the future (traveling through space). It becomes clear during the film that our hero, Tommy, is able to move his consciousness between these three times, changing the past with knowledge he’s gained in the future. One of the major things he needs to alter in the past is the fact that he never helped his wife conclude her novel. She was writing it when she fell critically ill, and before she passed away, she asked him to finish writing it for her. “Finish it,” is a line repeated many, many times in the film, reminding Tommy of all the things he left undone in the past, until finally, he uses the power of his mind to go back and alter the events.

I think the parallels between True Detective and The Fountain are too strong to be coincidence. Furthermore, when searching Will Purcell’s room, the detectives find a book that mentions Leng. Leng was originally a location in H. P. Lovecraft’s Dreamlands, and, if one possesses a strong enough mind, one can cross back and forth between the waking world and the Dreamlands. I think all of this points to Hays possessing the ability, somehow, to mentally jump between these periods in time. Think of the series finale to Star Trek: The Next Generation (spoilers — highlight to read) where Jean-Luc Picard does this exact thing: Mentally jumping from his past, present, and future selves in order to alter the events of all three timelines. There being multiple precedents for this makes it less of a stretch.

The fact that they’ve avoided specifically naming Hays’ mental condition leads me to think that naming it doesn’t matter, from a storytelling perspective, because they’re wrong. He doesn’t have dementia, or Alzheimer’s: It’s something medical science doesn’t understand.


How exactly he’s able to do this is a mystery that I don’t think will be answered. True Detective thus far has been perfectly comfortable with not answering every question. There’s still so much we don’t know about the Yellow King and what happened during the finale. And that’s OK. In real life, we usually don’t get answers to our greatest questions. And when you’re delving into the supernatural in an otherwise grounded show, it’s sometimes better not to explain everything. It’s also in line with the cosmic horror from which True Detective takes some inspiration: There are things we as humans can never understand about the universe, and attempting to understand them leads to madness.


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Theory: The Deeper Connection Between Bloodborne and Lovecraft

Disclaimer: Contains spoilers for Bloodborne.

There’s no question that the Hidetaka Miyazaki game Bloodborne is heavily influenced by the works of H. P. Lovecraft, particularly the concept of the Great Ones and other incomprehensible beings. There are three main cycles in Lovecraft’s work, with some overlaps here and there: The Cthulhu Mythos, the Dream Cycles, and his miscellaneous works. For this theory we’ll just be focusing on the first two.

There are two factions of “Gods” (for lack of a better word) in Lovecraft’s mythos: The Great Old Ones, such as Cthulhu and Tsathoggua, and the Outer Gods, such as Nyarlathotep and Azathoth. (There are also their minions, but those irrelevant here.) The Great Old Ones are mostly Earth deities, worshiped by ancient man. They are rooted in nature and the workings of the Earth itself. Then, there are the Outer Gods, which are more concerned with the Dream Lands and space. They exist outside of our natural realms, living instead in the far reaches of the cosmos and other dimensions.


In Bloodborne, the main goal of the humans is to transform into higher beings, akin to the Great Ones, through consumption of the blood of the left behind Great One, Ebrietas and experiments with the Kos parasites. However, these humans attempting ascension seem awfully confused. They believe that the Kos parasites will grant them the insight needed to ascend, and begin working with water-based experiments. Kos seems analogous to the Great Old Ones of the Earth. However, there seem to be bigger fish to fry, like the Moon presence, which seems more like an Outer God. It’s not a one-to-one comparison, but I believe Bloodborne drew from this concept of there being two factions of Gods, and created a conflict between them. Someone* suggested that the Amygdala seemed to be the antagonists of the Moon Presence.

*Author’s note: My sincerest apologies, I can’t recall whose theory this is. If anyone reading this knows, please bring it to my attention in the comments below so I can properly attribute their work to them.

Furthermore to prove that the citizens of Yharnam are greatly unaware of the truth, they mistook the concept of Insight to mean “Eyes on the inside.” This makes no sense, honestly. It sounds like the result of a game of telephone, wherein the original concept was to gain insight into the nature of these greater beings, so as to reach their level of existence, but over the years, or decades, or possibly even eras, this word “insight” was mistranslated by those that followed the original discoverers of the eldritch truth, and thought that they were supposed to literally have eyes inside their brains. They therefore began experimenting on animals, and later humans, mutilating them to sprout multiple eyes.


My theory on what all this means for the story of Bloodborne: Humans attempting ascension are concerned with the “Great Old Ones” like Kos, but they fail in their goals because this is not the true way. The twist at the end is that, while the humans were concerned with the Great Old Ones, the Moon Presence, an Outer God, was pulling the strings the whole time, and it is the true means of ascension. The ending is a revelation that everything the humans thought was important was a red herring. It was never the way to becoming a higher being. Something that other humans could never have fathomed was there was the true means they sought. It enslaved Gehrman so that it could find a Hunter to do its bidding, and destroy the Great Old Ones for reasons that are probably unfathomable to us mortals. Who knows how long this has been going on. Perhaps every Hunter has been given a different task, each one a step towards the Moon Presence’s ultimate goal. Eileen and Djura seem to have been successful in whatever task they were given, and were returned to the waking world by Gehrman’s execution.

Notice how it’s only once you meet the Moon Presence that you ascend to being a higher being. That was the only way the whole time. The blood of the Great Old Ones, Gods of the Earth, were only ever going to turn people into beasts, because the beasts are creatures of the Earth and Nature. The only way to become a higher being, is to commune with the cosmic entities.


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